Hello everyone

Hello everyone,
nice to find such a place that we can help each other and grow.
For vampirism i think,knowledge is a kind of life and death situtation literally.
Gift and curse ,light and darkness,power and weakness are the first things to come to my mind.
I've lived most of my life drained and exausted,not aware, sleepy,lightheaded sick,weak.If you feel like this all the time,you assume that this is life right?Untill..
My first feed:Happened by accident.At the time i was experimenting with meditation tecniques to relief my anxiety,and i was very good to let go and relax.I was at a friend's house with 2 girls and chilling after a football match and several beers, and we were all very calm and loose.So i closed my eyes as i used to and let go.It was the first time that i tried this with other people nearby me.My body did the rest,when i opened my eyes about 10min later i was full.My senses so sharp,my mind so clear,my muscles hardened.It felt like superman.
I would like to remember this night as my awakening,it was 4 years ago at 22 now i am 26.
Since then i have noticed even more sensivity to energy,as i 'm typing i can feel the electricity entering my body, my fingers tingle,i can feel it in my throat,in my ear drums,it makes me sick.
You may excuse me for my english,nice to find your forum brothers!

Welcome to the community.

If I may ask, how did you find this forum?

Google search.What else?

Greetings and Welcome.

[quote="DrFaust"]Hello everyone,
nice to find such a place that we can help each other and grow.
For vampirism i think,knowledge is a kind of life and death situtation literally.
Gift and curse ,light and darkness,power and weakness are the first things to come to my mind.
I've lived most of my life drained and exausted,not aware, sleepy,lightheaded sick,weak.If you feel like this all the time,you assume that this is life right?

Hi Dr faust, i'm new as well, and have to be sorry about my English too, as i'm French!. Like you I have encountered and still encounter loads of "general fatigue" (whilst my blood check ups are all ok). But not only that, i also have experimented what i assume to be an awakening in 2012: Loads of Astral vampires attacks day as night, ancients vampiric visions, vampiric dreams where i'm chased, attacked, and being myself one of them. I saw myself been bitten in a vision and then saw an arm doing a blood exchange ( still in this vision). I seem to crave for sexual energies, but don't claim to be a "sexual vampire" either, as i really take with a big grain of salt what people say on internet. And everything i read abour being a sexual one is barely what i feel or do.
Now i wanted to be a part of this community, cause members seem to have a solid background about occultism and vampires, probably for good reasons!. :DI really like being in here, and so far i really loved what i have read.
Hope we'll all find our own path through this forum. Warm welcome to you by the way.