Newly turned Vampire - [need assist]

My names StrangeLove. I recently became a vampire.
I'm not looking for a parade; just some help trying to get a feed.

I almost don't mind who I jump - I'm getting that drained.
I dont know much about the rules or etiquette yet.

This wasn't through choice. Not through direct choice anyway..
I didn't get picked off as a fuzzy bunny.
I haven't been trawling around until I found some old engine to turn me.

I was snared by a honeytrap and drained of my 'Ba' or immortal soul, robbed of my immortality, and now am parasitizing the energy of those around me to try and Live.
If I die I have no idea where it'll take me at this point.
I'm just trying to keep feeding and not think about it too much.

At first I didn't realise I was a vampire.. not fully... until I was spotted by an Italian guy who shielded his child from me and started hissing "Vampiro!" at his wife.
I noticed some Italians and some Spanish seem to sense me from quite a distance. (only the awake ones)
After a few of these encounters I put the pieces together with some german folklore.

Right now I'm just really lost and looking for some help and guidance.
I can't feel anything.
I feel totally numb.

Along with the spiritual drain came a massive egodeath so my personality has taken a massive flatline.
I tried to remember everything while I was being drained to help me adapt and survive, my heart was racing so fast, and my mind working so fast it's all a sort of blur right now, but I've written down all the crucial info.

I do know the ritual and process by which this was done (and think I could probably recreate it, with some practice and learning about switches, jumpers, wrappers, etc)
I don't fully understand all of this yet, but I know enough about electricity and soundsystems to get by.
Still, I'm quite out of my depth.

If anyone can help me I'd be willing to share info and resources (of which I have plenty).

Appologies for the 2-band post;
I'm so weak right now, it's a horribly vulnerable place to be; I'm pretty low on Mana and can barely hold my head up - let alone use it.

You haven't turned if you are one,
Here is an easy way to get energy though not the best

Piss someone off

so I can just feed on energy by evoking responses in people?

Like the cerebellum forms an induction charger circuit and by pushing people's buttons I'm shaking precious bodily fluids out of their spinal cord into mine?

So pissing someone off would feed me their anger and fustration?

On a serious note, evoking emotions can release energy

Try it and see

that makes sense, I'm gonna try it.

Do some emotions charge you stronger or more powerful than others?
e.g. Is love stronger than fear? (seems it would be)

Or is it a different type of charge?

Strangelove you are lucky Heruset was tolerant with you.I will tell you that Vampires feel no need to show off.If that would happen it would either be by an accident or for a serious different reason.I suggest you to do a research about vampirism on this forum and learn about vampires.

Oh,I forgot to add something.Yes,you probablly have passed an egodeath,to be looking for attention.

I'm not looking for your attention. Just your knowledge.
my irreverence at your attitude is because this isn't a competition about whose more vamp... its about how I can get back my spirit and soul...

as for my question, that you would consider it showing off confuses me.
are you a vampire? Or just on the internet?.. not saying you are or aren't, but it looks odd saying you're a vampire then saying you just have to piss people off to steal their spirit... then the attention thing when I ask about different waveforms... IIdkIim not trying to be a dick...

my suspicions would prob be confirmed if you take this comment personally.

anyways, what about energy vibrations?
How do you lock onto peoples energies?
Obviously fear is a moar dense wavelength and vibration than fear.
does that make it more or less energy?
How do I steal mana/spirit?

Will I produce mana/oil by my self?
I don't seem to be producing oil/mana myself.
I had my washing machine was completely drained...

If anyone doesn't want to post in public, PM me for a secure mail address.

Meditate.Balance your energy through your chakras.Don't piss of anyone.This will help.

George Gosdas wrote:Meditate.Balance your energy through your chakras.Don't piss of anyone.This will help.

i feel you're just showing off, and making snarky comments on my thread
would you mind telling me more about vampirism while you do it?
so far you've just been judgemental, rude, and arrogant to me when all I've done is asked for help from this forum...

are you a vampire?
How long for? how did you become a vampire?
Do you know how to force-will/send people off into a spiral?

I wanted to help you despite the fact you didn't do any research on vampirism and vampires on this forum.

George Gosdas wrote:I wanted to help you despite the fact you didn't do any research on vampirism and vampires on this forum.

I feel like you're assuming a lot. I've read through the forum, how do you want to help me?

I told you to meditate,did you try it?If you do it you will see results.

George Gosdas wrote:I told you to meditate,did you try it?If you do it you will see results.

what type of meditation?
and what type of results?

I meditate every morning after I wake up:
I do a sun salutation, ending in the fetal position, with my chin tucked down.
Then sit in ásana and practice quietude for an hour with my tongue to the roof of my mouth, then do KANdil BANdil RRR for like 20 minutes...

I feel like you're just asuming I don't meditate. what type would you recommend?

Find a good health audio program that balances the energy through you and makes you have more energy.Also close your eyes and try to think of the sun.Project into the sun and draw energy from it.I never make fast conclusions,you made wrong conclusion that I assume a lot of things about you.

George Gosdas wrote:I told you to meditate,did you try it?If you do it you will see results.

That implies you think I don't meditate.

So are you a vampire?

It doesn't mean I didn't believe you meditate.I said that in case you don't meditate.

George Gosdas wrote:It doesn't mean I didn't believe you meditate.I said that in case you don't meditate.

So you're not a vampire?

Does anyone know how to revert a kareth?
Or return soul/spirit after its removed?

Every time I try and recharge energy from other people it just drains again.

You do understand that if you had your soul or spirit removed from your body that you would be dead, right?

That doesn't make someone a vampire.

Every vampire has a soul just like every human. In fact the soul of a vampire has a much higher vibration than a human soul.

The absence of a soul in a living body is myth and a misconception.

I agree with Nightsade.Without soul you don't exist.

your soul is made of many different bodies

I need to recharge my spirit, from source.
I read a lot of Hermetic Alchemy, but I'm still looking for a way to draw spirit, and restock my "sacred wax"

I told her to 'Invoke' me and she did.I visited her and I can tell you that she is not a vampire and her soul is fine.I told her that she is pretty and she smells good and she said stuff like firefly. Sirius. Particle. Decibel. Socrates.Please don't take her seriously.

Nightshade wrote:You do understand that if you had your soul or spirit removed from your body that you would be dead, right?

That doesn't make someone a vampire.

Every vampire has a soul just like every human. In fact the soul of a vampire has a much higher vibration than a human soul.

The absence of a soul in a living body is myth and a misconception.

Thank you, Nightshade! Point made.

I think being a Vampire, is both Spiritual and Emotional. But, I do think this nonsense needs to stop; minus what Nightshade posted. I often believe that current Journeys need to made aloneStrangelove. How did you become a vampire? I am quite the loner, I have few close friends. I have made journeys alone a lot. Strangelove, I am not making fun of you, either. I am not that kind of person. George, Please let someone else point strangelove in the direction he or she needs to go and stop your attention seeking stop.